I am speechless tonight. Right now, I am beyond words, filled with so much emotion.
I was roasting coffee tonight when I noticed my phone blinking.
The notification revealed this: http://www.envisionkindness.org/young-mugs-coffee-roasters-pays-forward-zoe-faye/
I never mention my daughter, Zoë, in the same breath or conversation as Young Mugs Coffee. I have always wanted to keep them seperated, in fact, because I want my coffee to sell on its own merit. I never wanted anyone to buy my coffee because they felt bad for me.
The things I can't seperate are the exeriences I had with loosing a child to cancer and how that made me feel.
On my other blog on www.teamzoecamcersucks.com I once wrote a story that I had hoped to have actually enacted with Zoe one day when she would arrive home from school. I would be waiting in the kitchen, with three pots of boiling water on the stove. I would also have a plate on the side with an egg, a carrot, and some coffee beans.
I would tell her this: when you place the egg in the boiling water, it enters
soft and becomes hardenes. The carrot enters hard and becomes soft. The coffee beans enter the boiling water and change the emvironment, the flavor of the water.
What is ironic is that I wrote this blog post long before I considered starting a coffee roasting business.
The message I wanted to teach Zoë, and eventually Esmée and André, is right there, right where I am. I want to change my environment, change the flavor.
I can't seperate Zoë from Young Mugs Coffee, as much as I thought I could, or tried to. Young Mugs Coffee Roasters is an extention of The Zoë Faye Foundation.
I am writting that because when Zoë was sick and even after she passed away, we received a tremendous amount of support and I knew there was no way we could pay it back. The only option I could come up with is to pay it forward.
In that, I honor Zoë.
The understatement of the year goes to: Time!
Time flies. In my case it seems to soar. I think that I make the most of my time. Maybe I do and maybe I don't. 2017 has been very busy over at the Young Mugs Coffee Roasters. You can find me at the Douglas Farmer's Market on most Saturday Mornings. My schedule is listed on my main page.
I am also spending loads of time with my kids, which is the best job ever! Esmee starts preschool this year. While I am excited to have the extra time roasting coffee and marketing Young Mugs Coffee, I know I'll miss her here with me every day. The upswing is that I'll get a bunch of one on one time with my son, Andre. There are always pros and cons, I suppose.
Well, this time of the year, I like to reflect on my business. I sold my first bag of coffee two years ago, and have never looked back. It's been a wonderful adventure and has taught me a lot about life, business, and coffee. I am thrilled that I can blend the three things to create a fulfilling life.
Thank you for supporting my business, buying my brand of coffee, and encouraging me to keep up what I am doing. The future holds so much and I look forward to embracing it!